"Road to Recovery" by Shay-Renee

"Road to Recovery"

5 months cut free--

And I'm still going strong.

I had a few relapses--

But they didn't last long.

I got rid of the blades today,

I'm proud to say.

I know that a harm free life

Is the only way.

I want to say thank you

For believing in me.

It's because of you

That I'm on the road to recovery.

I'm going to fight my demons

And I promise to be better.

I no longer feel the need

To write an apology letter.

And though there will be bad days--

And days that I'll be discouraged.

I know that I'm strong now

And I will fight against the urges.

So, look out world

I'm ready to live!

I have so much to offer now

And I'm ready to give.

Dedicated to Sian, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Shay-Renee

©2013

“She once was a caterpillar--

Ugly and afraid.

But now she’s a butterfly--

Beautiful and brave.”

~ Shay-Renee

"I Hope You're Okay" by Shay-Renee

"I Hope You're Okay"

I've been thinking about you for a while now,

A couple of days.

It's been a while since we've last talked now,

I hope you're okay!

You were a great friend, one of the best!

If I had a list, next to your name I'd put "Better than the rest!"

I know that things change and people do too,

I guess what I'm saying--
Is that "I really miss you!"

Dedicated to my friend Eva, a "Broken Butterfly", and a Beatles fan.

Shay-Renee

©2013

"Just Let Me Cry" by Shay-Renee

"Just Let Me Cry"

You ask me what's wrong--

But I don't know why.

You ask me what can I do--

I tell you, "Just let me cry".

You ask me will I be okay--

I say, "Yes, just not today".

You ask me if you could stay--

I tell you, "Just let me cry and please go away".

I told you goodbye as I continued to cry--

I wanted to die but I couldn't tell you why...

I asked her what's wrong and she told me a lie.

Now I'm standing here at her grave wiping tears from my eyes.

She just had to die and leave me all alone--

Stop calling me now, I can't come to the phone.

I'm not okay, I won't even lie--

Just leave me alone and just let me cry. 

Shay-Renee

©2013

"Wipe your tears and wipe your eyes--
This is see you later and not goodbye."
~Shay-Renee

"No Two Fucks" by Shay-Renee

"No Two Fucks"

I don't give a fuck of what you think about me--

At the end of the day, I'm a still be me.

I don't give a fuck of what you think about me--

'Cause at the end of the day, I'm the one who knows me.

I don't give a fuck of what you say about me--

At the end of the day, you words don't mean shit to me.

I don't give a fuck of what you say about me--

'Cause at the end of the day, haters get no love from me.

I don't give a fuck if you don't like me--

Hell, if I was you then I wouldn't like me.

I don't give a fuck if you don't like me--

'Cause if I gave a fuck, then I wouldn't be me!

I give no two fucks about what a hater says, think, or does--

You just hatin' 'cause I'm everything that you wish you was!

Shay-Renee

©2013

"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment."

- Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Pretty Young Children" by Shay-Renee

"Pretty Young Children"

Pretty young child with the tearful eyes,

Trapped in a world full of deceit and lies.

It's hard for her to imagine in a world with such deceit--

That she could live a life so full and complete.

Pretty young child covered with cuts on his arms,

Ran away from home so that he could feel no harm.

Trapped in a world where people would shove--

Lost in a world where he couldn't find any love.

Pretty young child starving herself to death,

Anorexic to the words of "I'm fat" on her breath.

Staring through a magazine with her eyes on the prize--

Starving herself to be a supermodel's size.

Pretty young child drugging himself everyday,

Stigmatized by the jokes of kids calling him gay.

He shoots up heroin and snorts on cocaine--

Praying that one day it'll take away his pain.

Pretty young child with the rope in her hand,

Living in a world that she just can't understand.

Feeling all alone on a daily basis--

Hoping one day her time erases.

Pretty young child with a bottle by his side,

Drinks away the feelings that he always tries to hide.

Walking through his life dazed and hypnotized--

Wishing one day that the sun will rise...

Pretty young children all over the world.

Tortured by living in an injustice world.

Let go of insecurities and let the pain fade away--

Let's always hope tomorrow will bring a brighter day.

Pretty young children filled with the spirit in your heart,

Try to stay strong and keep from falling apart.

But if you fall apart, remember to pick the up the pieces--

Take a deep breathe and pray the drama releases.

Shay-Renee

©2013

"Queen of Hearts" by Shay-Renee

"Queen of Hearts"

If I were a queen, I'd be the queen of hearts--

Because I would want to rule everyone's heart.

If I were a queen, I'd be the queen of hearts--

And make sure that no heart is ever torn apart.

If I were a queen, I'd be the queen of hearts--

I would make sure, no one's world falls apart.

If I were a queen, I'd be the queen of hearts--

And I would make sure no one says "I love you" before the feelings start.

If I were a queen, I'd be the queen of hearts--

Because I want to protect/guard everyone's heart.

Shay-Renee

©2013

"Vodka-Toxic" by Shay-Renee

"Vodka-Toxic"

1 Vodka, 2 Vodka, 3 Vodka shots--

It didn't take long until she forgot.

1 Vodka, 2 Vodka, 3 Vodkas more--

Not ready for what life has in store.

1 Vodka, 2 Vodka, 3 Vodkas go--

What comes next she does not know.

1 Vodka, 2 Vodka, 3 Vodkas no!

She screamed very well knowing that he wouldn't let go.

1 Vodka, 2 Vodka, 3 Vodkas out--

"Stop touching me," she screams and she shouts.

1 Vodka, 2 Vodka, 3 Vodka hits--

She tries so hard to get him to quit.

1 Vodka, 2 Vodka, 3 Vodkas in--

The trauma sets in, and the pain begins.

1 Vodka, 2 Vodka, 3 Vodka drinks--

Everything happened before she could blink.

1 minute, 2 minutes, 3 minutes, sad--

It was the worst day that she'd ever had.

Shay-Renee

©2013

"Winter Sky" by Shay-Renee

"Winter Sky"

My winter sky's always blue or gray--

It seems my life has stayed that way.

Some days are good, some days are bad--

Sometimes in life, I'm always sad.

I carry in my back, a knife--

For the days I hate my life.

So many faces, I have seen.

So many places, non-serene.

Hoping for a brighter day,

I've often wished my life away...

Shay-Renee

©2013

"While All the Birds Sang..." by Shay-Renee

"While All the Birds Sang..."

While all the birds sang except for one--

'Cause she went unnoticed by everyone.

While all the birds sang except for one--

'Cause she was very different from everyone.

While all the birds sang except for me--

Because I was learning how to live life free.

While all the birds sang except for me--

Because I was figuring out who I wanted to be.

While all the birds sang except for me--

Because I was learning how to spread my wings.

While all the birds sang except for me--

As I was let down by everything.

While all the birds sang except for me--

Because I was left out of everything.

While all the birds sang except for me--

The next day they found me dead, left in my tree.

While all the birds sang except for me--

After I found out that no one was listening to me.

Shay-Renee

©2013

"Butterfly" by Shay-Renee

"Butterfly"

B'roken

U'ntil

T'here's

T'his

E'vent

R'eally

F'ulfilling (that)

L'ife

Y'ields

Shay-Renee

©2013