"When I'm Breaking Down" by Shay-Renee

"When I'm Breaking Down"

I try to tell them that I'm fucking crazy--

But they don't want to believe me.

It's only when I'm fucking breaking down--

When they fucking see or hear me.

I try to tell them that I'm out of my mind--

I'm fucking crazy!

It's only when I'm breaking down--

When nothing phase me.

I try to tell them that I'm out of my mind--

I'm fucking crazy...

But unless I'm breaking down--

They don't really believe me.

Shay-Renee
©2014

"When You're Stuck in the Dark" by Shay-Renee

"When You're Stuck in the Dark"

Promise Me--
Will everything be okay?
Even on days like this?
When I feel this way.

Promise Me--
Will everything be alright?
Even though it's hard for me--
To see tomorrow night.

Promise Me--
Because I'm falling apart.
It's hard to see the light--
When you're stuck in the dark.

Dedicated to Carrie, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".
She once wrote me, "Promise? Will everything be okay?"
Just to let you know, everything will be okay love. ;)

Shay-Renee
©2014

"I'm Okay..." by Shay-Renee

"I'm Okay..."

I'm okay...
I'm alive, aren't I?
I'm' okay...
Yeah, that's my lie.

I'm okay...
I'm doing fine.
I'm okay...
Can you tell I'm lying?

I'm okay...
I'll fake a smile.
I'm okay...
Isn't life worthwhile!

I'm okay...
I'm alive, aren't I?
I'm okay...
As I start to cry.

Dedicated to Kearson, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a “Broken Butterfly”.

She once told me, “I’m okay… I’m alive, aren’t I?”

Shay-Renee
©2014

"Every Step of the Way" by Shay-Renee

"Every Step of the Way"

I love you--
Every step of the way.
Even on the days--
When you're not okay.

I know there are days--
When life gets so hard.
Especially when you're--
Emotionally scarred.

But just keep on living--
Keep on believing.
Follow your dreams--
Keep on achieving.

There's so much--
That you can do.
Just know that--
I believe in you.

I love you--
Every step of the way.
Even on the days--
When you're not okay.

Dedicated to Tiffany a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Shay-Renee

©2014

"Just Keep Smiling" by Shay-Renee

"Just Keep Smiling"

Just keep smiling--

The world keeps turning.

Everything's alright--

You're living and you're learning.

It's okay to make mistakes--

That's life after all.

It's okay to get up--

Even after you fall.

It's okay to feel sad--

It's okay to break down.

It's okay to fake a smile--

Even when you want to frown.

Everything's okay love--

You will be alright.

Just keep on going--

You can win this fight.

Just keep smiling--

The world keeps turning.

Everything's alright--

You're living and you're learning.

Dedicated to Sandy, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

She's the one who told me, "Just keep smiling, the world keeps turning." :)

Shay-Renee
©2014

"For She is Beautiful" by Shay-Renee

"For She is Beautiful"

For she is beautiful--

In her own way.

She has this lovely spirit--

And she speaks in such a kind way.

For she is beautiful--

And I hope she knows.

For wherever she walks--

Her beauty shows.

For she is beautiful--

Just in being herself.

She doesn't need to pretend to be like--

Anyone else.

Dedicated to Ellen, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Shay-Renee

©2014

"I Feel Nothing..." by Shay-Renee

"I Feel Nothing..."

I feel nothing...
There's nothing else to say.
Unless you can tell me that--
Everything will be okay.

I feel empty...
The emptiness inside.
Can you show me?
A better place to hide.

I feel lost...
Lost in this confusion.
I try to live my life--
In the most beautiful delusion.

I feel pain...
It's like a knife in my chest.
And then I ask myself--
Am I doing my best?

I feel tired...
All I want to do is sleep.
Can I trust you?
With the secrets that I keep.

I feel hopeless...
In the world that surrounds me.
Is there anyone out there?
Anyone that can find me?

I feel nothing...
There's nothing else to say.
Unless you can tell me that--
Everything will be okay.

Dedicated to Bianca, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".
She once told me, "I am here , nothing more to say, sincerely , i feel nothing."
And I just want to tell her, that everything will be okay. ;)

Shay-Renee
©2014

A Quote For Inspiration: Robert H. Schuller

A Quote For Inspiration:

“Tough times never last, but tough people do.”

— Robert H. Schuller

"Angel Wings" by Shay-Renee

"Angel Wings"

Angel wings,
Cover her with light.
Guide and protect her--
Throughout the night.

She's my friend,
She's kind and sweet.
One of the sweetest girls--
You'll ever meet.

Angel wings,
Teach her how to fly.
And wrap her with love--
Whenever she cries.

Angel wings,
Just do your best.
And carry her throughout--
Life's hardest tests.

Dedicated to Ele, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Shay-Renee
©2014

"As You Fall" by Shay-Renee

"As You Fall"

You told me you loved me--

Flaws and all.

I told you I cared--

And would catch you if you fall.

But I guess it's not enough--

I guess you need more.

Because all I get now--

Is "I'm sorry", nothing more.

And I'm not mad--

I just wish there was something I could do...

To try and lift your spirits up--

Just wanting happiness for you.

But I know we all cope--

In different ways...

All I hope for you--

Is brighter days.

And though it feels different--

Although it's not the same.

I can't help but feel like--

I'm the one to blame...

You told me you loved me--

Flaws and all.

And I can't catch you--

As you fall.

Dedicated to Carrie, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Shay-Renee

©2014

"Kissing My Scars" by Shay-Renee

"Kissing My Scars"

I only have one person--

Kissing my arms.

He's a real prince--

With lots of charm.

He knows me better--

Than most do.

He knows me better--

Than a lot of you.

He kissed my scars--

And took away my pain.

He's the one who love me--

With the fresh blood stains.

But now I'm clean--

For a horse that I adore.

He's my baby Tank--

Who loved me much more.

Dedicated to Autumn, a friend/sister, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Shay-Renee

©2014

"A Million Pieces" by Shay-Renee

"A Million Pieces"

They found my heart scattered--

In a million pieces.

I tried to stop the pain--

But it never ceases.

They found my mind scattered--

In a million pieces.

I tried to forget the memory--

But it's significance increases.

They found my spirit scattered--

In a million pieces.

I tried to look for hope--

But it steadily decreases.

They found my body scattered--

In a million pieces.

Now my family has my pain--

And it never ceases....

Shay-Renee
©2014