"Tú No Está Solo" by Shay-Renee

"Tú No Está Solo"

Tú no está solo,

Tienes un amigo en mí.

Tú no está solo--

Estoy aquí siempre que me necesitan.

Tú no está solo,

Estoy siempre allí.

Tú no está solo--

Yo siempre cuidado.

English Version:
"You Are Not Alone"

You are not alone,
You have a friend in me.
You are not alone--
I'm here whenever you need me to be.

You are not alone,
I am always there.
You are not alone--
I will always care.

Dedicated to all my "Broken Butterflies" and to Kasumi, a friend, a tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Inspired by her tumblr account - "You are not alone. Tú no está solo."

Shay-Renee

©2014

"They Never Gave Me A Chance" by Shay-Renee

"They Never Gave Me A Chance"

I go to class, I hardly speak.

The kids in school call me a freak.

I suffer from anxiety,

I don't fit in with society.

A victim of circumstance--

The world never gave me a chance.

I don't think they understand,

What life is like when you're dealt this hand.

Shay-Renee

©2014

Facts on bullying and suicide from http://www.bullyingstatistics.org/content/bullying-and-suicide.html:

"Bully victims are between 2 to 9 times more likely to consider suicide than non-victims, according to studies by Yale University."

"A study in Britain found that at least half of suicides among young people are related to bullying."

"According to statistics reported by ABC News, nearly 30 percent of students are either bullies or victims of bullying, and 160,000 kids stay home from school every day because of fear of bullying."

"An Emotional Roller-Coaster" by Shay-Renee

"An Emotional Roller-Coaster"

Happy one minute,

Sad the next--

An emotional roller-coaster,

Is what I know best.

Smiling one minute,

Crying the next--

That's my life,

That's what I do best.

There is no peace,

As hard as I try.

It never ceases--

And I don't know why...

Shay-Renee
©2014

"A Few Nice Words" by Shay-Renee

"A Few Nice Words"

A few nice words,

Can really make someone's day.

A few nice words--

That's all you have to say.

A few nice words,

Just to make someone smile.

A few nice words--

To make someone's life worthwhile.

A few nice words,

That's all you have to do.

A few nice words--

Means so much coming from you.

Dedicated to Kasumi, a friend, a tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Inspired by her tumblr account quote:

"A few nice words can help a person a lot more than you think."

Shay-Renee
©2014

"You Should Smile" by Shay-Renee

"You Should Smile"

I hope you look at this and smile,

You've been sad for a while.

I know you're holding on to hope--

And that you're trying hard to cope.

I hope you look at this and smile,

You've been sad for a while.

I see all the things you do--

That brings the beauty out of you.

I hope you look at this and smile,

You've been sad for a while.

Please put a smile upon your face--

You make this world a better place.

I hope you look at this and smile.

Dedicated to Layla, a friend, a tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Inspired by her tumblr account bio quote - "I hope you look at this and smile."

Shay-Renee

©2014

A Moment Of Clarity by Shay-Renee

A Moment Of Clarity

A friend of mines, Sandy, told me to be honest with myself and to others. 

So, I just wanted to say that I was really having a tough time lately. 

However, yesterday I woke up and realized that I deserved to be happy. 

I’m so hard on myself. 

Always trying to be perfect and always trying to do things right, 

that I forgot that they most important thing is trying. 

Trying to make things better and trying to change things that I can’t control. 

I think we often forget that we are human and we can only do so much. 

So, please— remember that you are trying. And that’s doing more than enough. 

And thank you Sandy, for all of your help! :)

~Shay-Renee

"Follow Your Bliss" by Shay-Renee

"Follow Your Bliss"

Follow your bliss,
Wherever it takes you.
And don't let this world--
Ever break you.

You're beautiful, darling!
Please keep this in mind.
Follow your bliss--
Don't leave it behind.

Follow your bliss,
Starting today.
And don't let anything--
Stand in your way!

Dedicated to Caley, a friend, a tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Inspired by her tumblr account "follow your bliss".

Shay-Renee

©2014

"My Mind Never Sleeps" by Shay-Renee

"My Mind Never Sleeps"

I have a mind that never sleeps--

From all the secrets that it keeps.

These thoughts, they often keep me awake.

I need some sleep for heaven's sake!

These thoughts, they keep me from my dreaming.

And leave me awake at night, often screaming.

I just want these thoughts out of my head--

So, I can lay down at night and go to bed.

Dedicated to Raven, a friend, a tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Inspired by her tumblr account quote - "A Mind That Never Sleeps".

Shay-Renee

©2014

"I'm A Hopeless Romantic" by Shay-Renee

"I'm A Hopeless Romantic"

I'm a hopeless romantic,
Who dreams of love.
And it's always you--
That I'm thinking of.

I'm a hopeless romantic,
Who plays the guitar.
Thinking of you--
Wondering where you are.

I'm a hopeless romantic,
I take walks on the daily.
Singing to songs--

That have probably saved me.

I'm a hopeless romantic,

Who dreams of love.

And it's always you--

That I'm thinking of.

Dedicated to Dalton, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Shay-Renee

©2014

"Coastal Dreamer" by Shay-Renee

"Coastal Dreamer"

Dreaming of a life,
Living on the coast.
The waves and the sand--
Are what I love the most.

Laying in the sand--
With the wind in my hair.
Life on the beach,
Please take me there.

I'm a coastal dreamer--
What can I say?
When I dream of my life,
I see it this way.

Dedicated to Lauren, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Inspired by her tumblr account - "coastaldreamer".

Shay-Renee

©2014

"I Won't Fade Away" by Shay-Renee

"I Won't Fade Away"

She said,
"Please don't fade away.

I want you in my life--
And I want you to stay."

My reply:

No worries darling--
I'm not going anywhere.
I love you darling,
And I'll always be there.

So smile darling,
You have a friend in me.
And by your side--
Is where I'll always be.

Dedicated to both Sandy and Ele, friends, Tumblr followers, and "Broken Butterflies".

Inspired by Sandy who once wrote me, "Please don't fade away like everyone else".

Darling, I will always be there for you in spirit. Don't worry about that! ;)

Shay-Renee

©2014

"My Crystallized Secrets" by Shay-Renee

"My Crystallized Secrets"

These crystallized secrets,
Under my eyes.
Are covering up--
A big surprise.

They are covering my pain--
Covering my hurt.
Yet it's the pain,
That keeps me alert.

Crystallized--
Crystal eyes--
Can you tell the truth
From the lies?

Dedicated to Angelique, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Inspired by her tumblr account - "mycrystallizedsecrets".

Shay-Renee

©2014

"Drowning" by Shay-Renee

"Drowning"

I can't breathe--
I'm grasping for air--
I feel like I'm drowning,
And there's no one there....

No one there to help me--
No one there to save me--
Save me from my sadness,
I think I'm going crazy.

I can't breathe--
I'm grasping for air--
I'm slowing drowning,
And no one cares...

Shay-Renee
©2014

The Second Poem Written For Me: "Thank You" by Ellen

"Thank You"

The saddest part is forgetting
The feeling of what you want to remember
Laying in the sunshine-
And thinking it’s December.
But there are certain people
Who help you remember what to forget
Who with kind words cast away the clouds
Who send away sadness in burial shrouds
Friends like sunshine
That make the dark go away
Always reminding you “It’ll be ok.”

-Ellen

#ILOVEYOUBROKENBUTTERFLY   

Feb 25th, 2014

This is the second poem ever written for me and I love it!
She's so amazing for writing me one! :) I love her!

"Just Keep Fighting" by Shay-Renee

"Just Keep Fighting"

She said,
"I'm scared of the thoughts inside of my head.
They keep waking me up,
Telling me I should be dead."

I tell her,
"Darling don't worry, you have to stay strong.
Especially since you've been fighting this--
For so long.

She said,
"The voices keep coming, they won't let me go.
I keep pushing them away,
But how long can I say no."

I tell her,
"Darling, you're amazing, you can get through this.
I believe in you,
I know you can do this."

Shay-Renee
©2014

Dedicated to Melina, Carrie, Sandy, Sian, Shae, Ellen, and Ele.
You lovely ladies are my friends, my Tumblr followers, and some of the most beautiful "Broken Butterflies" I've ever met!
I love you girls very much and I know that you are all going through some things right now but I just want you all to know that I care about you.
You will get through this.
This poem is also for anyone else who's going through a tough time right now.
You will get through it.

"Green-Eyed Cutie" by Shay-Renee

"Green Eyed Cutie"

Green-eyed cutie,
With a hint of blue.
I don't know what it is--
But there's something about you.

You're only 16,
With your life in front of you.
I only hope that life will be--
Good and kind to you.

Green-eyed cutie,
With a hint of blue.
I'm glad you've remained strong,
After all you have been through.

You're only 16,
And yet your heart is so kind.
I'm in love with your spirit,
I'm in love with your mind.

Green-eyed cutie,
With a hint of blue.
I'm sure glad that the world--
Has people like you.

Dedicated to Karina H., a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".
She wrote the first poem ever written for me! Thank you love! :)

Shay-Renee
©2014

The First Poem Written For Me: "My butterfly" by Karina H.

"My butterfly"

Your eyes
Are like the greenest grass
Your hair
Like the wind is trapped beneath it
Your heart
Flutters like the beating of wings
You
Are my butterfly
And I will love you, broken or not

~for iloveyoubrokenbutterfly
By brokenpencilsharpener (K.h.)

Feb 23rd, 2014

This is the first poem ever written for me and I love it!
She's so amazing for writing me one! :)

A Quote About Life: Unknown

A Quote about Life:

"Most of the problems in life are because of two reasons:

We act without thinking or we keep thinking without acting."

— Unknown

A Quote About Life: Unknown

A Quote About Life:

"Life never seems to be the way we want it,

but we live it the best way we can.

There is no perfect life 

but we can fill it with perfect moments."

— Unknown

Personal Quote by Shay-Renee

Personal Quote:

"The worst thing about depression-

Is that it's like a boomerang when it comes back.

One minute you're doing okay (possibly even smiling) and then the next minute you're crying for no apparent reason at all.

Like many illnesses, it's a constant battle to get better.

Some people just don't understand that."

— Shay-Renee

Personal Quote by Shay-Renee

Personal Quote:

"How hard is it for people to understand that everyone is human?

Everyone has feelings.

Everyone makes mistakes.

And no one is perfect.

How hard is it for people not to judge others just because they are different, just because they make a mistake/mistakes, and just because they are fucking human!

Everyone is allowed to live their life the way that they want to.

It's called trying to be happy.

But then people judge them for it.

The pressure that people put on each other is so ridiculous and overwhelming at times.

And then they wonder why people break.

It's not that hard to understand why."

— Shay-Renee

Personal Quote by Shay-Renee

Personal Quote:

"It's quite confusing....
To really want to disappear some days... from everyone and everything.
Because people can be so judgmental and mean.
But then you soon realize, that it can be quite lonely and quite dark staying to yourself.
And to be honest, I don't know which is worse."
— Shay-Renee

"When I'm Breaking Down" by Shay-Renee

"When I'm Breaking Down"

I try to tell them that I'm fucking crazy--

But they don't want to believe me.

It's only when I'm fucking breaking down--

When they fucking see or hear me.

I try to tell them that I'm out of my mind--

I'm fucking crazy!

It's only when I'm breaking down--

When nothing phase me.

I try to tell them that I'm out of my mind--

I'm fucking crazy...

But unless I'm breaking down--

They don't really believe me.

Shay-Renee
©2014

"When You're Stuck in the Dark" by Shay-Renee

"When You're Stuck in the Dark"

Promise Me--
Will everything be okay?
Even on days like this?
When I feel this way.

Promise Me--
Will everything be alright?
Even though it's hard for me--
To see tomorrow night.

Promise Me--
Because I'm falling apart.
It's hard to see the light--
When you're stuck in the dark.

Dedicated to Carrie, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".
She once wrote me, "Promise? Will everything be okay?"
Just to let you know, everything will be okay love. ;)

Shay-Renee
©2014

"I'm Okay..." by Shay-Renee

"I'm Okay..."

I'm okay...
I'm alive, aren't I?
I'm' okay...
Yeah, that's my lie.

I'm okay...
I'm doing fine.
I'm okay...
Can you tell I'm lying?

I'm okay...
I'll fake a smile.
I'm okay...
Isn't life worthwhile!

I'm okay...
I'm alive, aren't I?
I'm okay...
As I start to cry.

Dedicated to Kearson, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a “Broken Butterfly”.

She once told me, “I’m okay… I’m alive, aren’t I?”

Shay-Renee
©2014

"Every Step of the Way" by Shay-Renee

"Every Step of the Way"

I love you--
Every step of the way.
Even on the days--
When you're not okay.

I know there are days--
When life gets so hard.
Especially when you're--
Emotionally scarred.

But just keep on living--
Keep on believing.
Follow your dreams--
Keep on achieving.

There's so much--
That you can do.
Just know that--
I believe in you.

I love you--
Every step of the way.
Even on the days--
When you're not okay.

Dedicated to Tiffany a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Shay-Renee

©2014

"Just Keep Smiling" by Shay-Renee

"Just Keep Smiling"

Just keep smiling--

The world keeps turning.

Everything's alright--

You're living and you're learning.

It's okay to make mistakes--

That's life after all.

It's okay to get up--

Even after you fall.

It's okay to feel sad--

It's okay to break down.

It's okay to fake a smile--

Even when you want to frown.

Everything's okay love--

You will be alright.

Just keep on going--

You can win this fight.

Just keep smiling--

The world keeps turning.

Everything's alright--

You're living and you're learning.

Dedicated to Sandy, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

She's the one who told me, "Just keep smiling, the world keeps turning." :)

Shay-Renee
©2014

"For She is Beautiful" by Shay-Renee

"For She is Beautiful"

For she is beautiful--

In her own way.

She has this lovely spirit--

And she speaks in such a kind way.

For she is beautiful--

And I hope she knows.

For wherever she walks--

Her beauty shows.

For she is beautiful--

Just in being herself.

She doesn't need to pretend to be like--

Anyone else.

Dedicated to Ellen, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Shay-Renee

©2014

"I Feel Nothing..." by Shay-Renee

"I Feel Nothing..."

I feel nothing...
There's nothing else to say.
Unless you can tell me that--
Everything will be okay.

I feel empty...
The emptiness inside.
Can you show me?
A better place to hide.

I feel lost...
Lost in this confusion.
I try to live my life--
In the most beautiful delusion.

I feel pain...
It's like a knife in my chest.
And then I ask myself--
Am I doing my best?

I feel tired...
All I want to do is sleep.
Can I trust you?
With the secrets that I keep.

I feel hopeless...
In the world that surrounds me.
Is there anyone out there?
Anyone that can find me?

I feel nothing...
There's nothing else to say.
Unless you can tell me that--
Everything will be okay.

Dedicated to Bianca, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".
She once told me, "I am here , nothing more to say, sincerely , i feel nothing."
And I just want to tell her, that everything will be okay. ;)

Shay-Renee
©2014

A Quote For Inspiration: Robert H. Schuller

A Quote For Inspiration:

“Tough times never last, but tough people do.”

— Robert H. Schuller

"Angel Wings" by Shay-Renee

"Angel Wings"

Angel wings,
Cover her with light.
Guide and protect her--
Throughout the night.

She's my friend,
She's kind and sweet.
One of the sweetest girls--
You'll ever meet.

Angel wings,
Teach her how to fly.
And wrap her with love--
Whenever she cries.

Angel wings,
Just do your best.
And carry her throughout--
Life's hardest tests.

Dedicated to Ele, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Shay-Renee
©2014

"As You Fall" by Shay-Renee

"As You Fall"

You told me you loved me--

Flaws and all.

I told you I cared--

And would catch you if you fall.

But I guess it's not enough--

I guess you need more.

Because all I get now--

Is "I'm sorry", nothing more.

And I'm not mad--

I just wish there was something I could do...

To try and lift your spirits up--

Just wanting happiness for you.

But I know we all cope--

In different ways...

All I hope for you--

Is brighter days.

And though it feels different--

Although it's not the same.

I can't help but feel like--

I'm the one to blame...

You told me you loved me--

Flaws and all.

And I can't catch you--

As you fall.

Dedicated to Carrie, a friend, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Shay-Renee

©2014

"Kissing My Scars" by Shay-Renee

"Kissing My Scars"

I only have one person--

Kissing my arms.

He's a real prince--

With lots of charm.

He knows me better--

Than most do.

He knows me better--

Than a lot of you.

He kissed my scars--

And took away my pain.

He's the one who love me--

With the fresh blood stains.

But now I'm clean--

For a horse that I adore.

He's my baby Tank--

Who loved me much more.

Dedicated to Autumn, a friend/sister, a Tumblr follower, and a "Broken Butterfly".

Shay-Renee

©2014

"A Million Pieces" by Shay-Renee

"A Million Pieces"

They found my heart scattered--

In a million pieces.

I tried to stop the pain--

But it never ceases.

They found my mind scattered--

In a million pieces.

I tried to forget the memory--

But it's significance increases.

They found my spirit scattered--

In a million pieces.

I tried to look for hope--

But it steadily decreases.

They found my body scattered--

In a million pieces.

Now my family has my pain--

And it never ceases....

Shay-Renee
©2014